if it rains

If it rains
Clouds would not be the one to bleed alone tonight
You have always loved the rain
I remember the way you used to jump in puddles and splash water
Rain always lend your eyes a glint of mischief
Rain made you wild
I remember the moments when we walked through the rain
Holding each other’s hand
You always loved the rain and I loved you
I remember the last time when we met
It was raining that day
I walked four blocks in the rain to get you the carnations that you loved
I saw you standing, all drenched up
There was rain in your hairs and you looked sad
There was no mischief in your eyes and the water on your cheeks wasn’t raindrops
It was tears
I looked at you and you outstretched your palm to hand me back the ring I have given you
I don’t remember what you said nor do I remember the reasons that you gave me
But I do remember the carnations
As they changed their color to muddy brown from white lying there in the puddle
And I remember watching you go as your silhouette faded with the rain
I sat there for a long time trying to recollect whatever there was to
And that day it was not the clouds that only wept
It was me who cried them.
It hasn’t rained since then but the clouds have returned
And I sit here watching them unroll
Waiting for the rain to come down and wash away my tears.